When you keep on criticizing me, I tried to control my temper and i pulled myself back from exploding... But somehow all these effort is not seen by you...

you ignore me as and when you like, which i had already told you not to so, because I don't like. but obviously you dun give a damn...

You said that you dun feel like smiling so you dun wanna smile to me. IF you are allow to do such thing and allow yourself to do such thing to me, then what am i to you?

From your all these reaction, it makes me feel discouraging and hurtful, and even makes me feel like cancelling the air ticket to your hometown.

I am a "precious" in my family, a spoilt brat if i want to be.

But yet, it seems like my tolerance towards you had mislead you that I am a woman that does not have much temper.

Too bad, you are wrong. you are getting on my nerves. you are pushing to an edge whereby I decided to let you be alone.

Maybe that suits you more currently. You dun feel like talkin? fine! Lets dun talk.

You dun feel like smiling? Fine! Then dun smile..

But I guess, you might not feel much pain as I do.

I hate myself from loving you.

Cos I know that the moment you are sitting beside me, would make me want to cry.

I feel like reject all the closeness from you now.

I hate you appearing in front me because I know I would be soft-hearted and start to approach you again..

I know it is stupid, so i would do all my might not to be stupid.

Why would all these gone wrong? Because you are running out of patience.

I know I am not demanding too much, it is just that the "freshness" in the relationship just gone stale.

No more patience from you, no more passion from you, no more communication from you.

All I got is criticism and criticism and criticism and criticism..

How much negative feeling you had created in me? I have seriously no idea.

While you criticizing me, why not you look at yourself first?

How dare you and what give you the authority to do this to me?

I hate these.. really.. all the warmth you gave me will be buried in my heart.

It will be a wonderful memories. I would just stay strong and will tell myself not to be soft-hearted again.

I am sick and tired of experiencing such treatment from you, which I think that I do not deserve such craps.

It is sickening.

笑容的感染力

Wednesday, January 28, 2015 • 4:37 PM • 0 comments

早晨的相遇，还有给予彼此的会心一笑会有让人可以开心一整天的能力。。

可是为什么他不明白呢？？

我不开心，因为想要他的笑容，似乎总要付出什么代价。。

I like to 撒娇， but it does not mean that I would like the concept of 为了讨好而撒娇。。

有时感觉好累。。累在要讨好。。

*叹息。。。*

没原则的我

Tuesday, August 19, 2014 • 11:09 AM • 0 comments

猛然发现，故事不断的重演是不是我的没原则造成的。。

应该是吧。。 我似乎带他到欲望的世界，可是我又不希望他变成以前的他们。。

可是我的行为却把他变成以前的他们。。好讨厌这种感觉。。 *自我厌恶中*

I allow him to take me for granted, yet i seems to be angry him.. but in fact, I am disliking myself.. Cos I allow things to happen again n again.. ha.. Annoyed..

似乎和他们都一样，可又不一样。。

• 12:20 AM • 0 comments

我生闷气了。。 有一瞬间，觉得男生似乎都一样。。

在某种行为上，完全没有顾虑到我的感受。。 

因为我的允许，所以让某些事情发生了。。 然后呢？！

事情似乎又会在不断地重演。。 让我觉得恶心。。

现在，我恨不得能用言语来伤害他，伤他的个遍体鳞伤。。 可是我知道那是不理智的。。

内心是愤怒的。。 可是我终究不忍心呀。。 

因为坦白说，他对我是不错。。 只是，似乎在几乎所有的男人心里，自己的欲望似乎比自己的女人心情来得有分量。。

呵呵。。 我讨厌这样的感觉。。

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