haiz.. dint go to sch today AGAIN...

so sick la.. everytime hav to wait for the stupid cab on the very early morning for InetApp.. I wanted to go.. but i always hav to wait for a very long time.. =.=~ idiot sia..

as u noe, my InetApp is at 8am.. i will start waiting for cab at 7.25am or earlier.. but today the most unlucky day!! RAINING! ok nvm.. i still hav to get up for tt lesson.. i dun mind.. but its sooo lang bei.. taking an umbrella, standing in the rain wif my clutches.. =.=~

I really wanted to go to InetApp.. but NO TAXI! WAD I CAN DO?! my papa, no need to say, confirm wun fetch me there.. sometime he still hav the cheek to say tt i shld go dwn early to wait for the taxi.. y dun he fetch me there?!

ytd, i went to cut my hair.. as it is nearby, n my bro was wif me at home, so i go n cut my hair wif him.. when mum was back home, we both ask her we gt any changes... SHE DINT EVEN NOTICE?! its like so big difference lo..

Nvm abt tt, get used to it le.. n when i rch the barber, tt auntie was shock abt my leg.. lolx... then she ask me hw i go to sch, i say by cab.. then she was like quite shocking abt my cab fare $40 per day.. then she asked me hw come i dun wanna ask my father to fetch me..

i said, "sometime things no need to ask de, bcos u alrdy noe the answer le.. N eventually, u alrdy knew the ans would b like tt, then wad for askin? hope for different thing would come out? if i really asked my dad to fetch me, i think his ans is go take taxi urself or smth like tt.. no matter wad, he wun fetch me de na.. muz well dun ask, cos tt will hurt me mre lo.."

although i say like tt, but smtm me myself really hope tt the ans is positive, as in hoping my dad would say "OK! I FETCH U!" But i guess, tt would nvr happen na.. asking him mre, really hurt me lo.. rather sad.. In order nt to make myself so sad, i rather dun ask..

There's once i took a taxi, the uncle tell me tt i hav to speak out to my father.. but i was like, "ok.. i will try.." but then, mayb im same like my mum as in, given up hopes in dad le ba.. i noe hw mum feel, but she still gt us ma.. but to her,mayb we grow old le, nt tt close to her le.. i wanted to chat wif her.. but smtm she will tell us the same thing of dad or cant communicate wif her..

Duno na.. sometime i feel tt, when i gt injuried, i feel care n concern frm my mum.. nt my dad.. haiz.. so sometimes, i rather im nt given hopes frm the parents...
Cos "no hope = no disappointment"
Sometime i feel tt i can talk to Ergu mre than my parents lo.. haiz.. although she's abit naggy la.. but then i noe she mean well.. At least im able to tell her hw i feel lo.. Not like my own parents.. in some senses, i felt tt i cant communicate wif her, even though i wanted to.. she nvr noe na.. i guess..

*Note: Ergu is xhj's mama*

I dun wan tt disappointment.. x.x~
Well, im emo-in again le.. lolx.. haiz.. ok.. finish naggin n man yuan-in le..

Conclusion: "DINT GO TO SCH AGAIN~ and dun wanna get too close to parents le.. dun wanna b given some hope tt wun b coming true"

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