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Wednesday, October 29, 2008 • 1:28 PM • 0 comments muhahaha! im so sry tt i din update.. but anyway nt much ppl readin my blog too.. LMAO! heck care~ muhahaha!Tis new song is a starting song from naruto shippuden.. its damn nice na! i really luv it.. lolx =x But no matter hw i change, it still cant work on my browser.. =.= So i heck care le.. u can heard it or nt, ur fate na.. lolx! ja ne Dedicated to Weifeng II
Wednesday, October 15, 2008 • 10:10 PM • 0 comments although tis is called dedicated to weifeng, i will also write reply to xhj.. lolx~ Ok! Xhj 1st ^^Xhj : =_= darling... ah... this post kinda~ sensitive darling! =_=!!!! less harsher onegai Jie, i wun b able to treat him like a so called greenhouse's flower or wadsoever.. like u say, he is 13 now.. 13yrs old, is a teenager's age.. teenagers are called young adults.. U n me clearly noes wad is young adult means.. Somemre, like i say im stating the facts.. =] Weifeng : came in peace...is there a need for insult? U came in peace? ARE U SURE ENUFF TO SAY TT?! ^^ The way u write ur tag, its juz as if erjie n me is in the fault, BUT NT UR DAD ^^ Erjie Throw things, ITS HER BUSINESS, did he had the need to slap her?! I say those things, ITS MY FREEDOM, did he had the need to kick me?! Dun u noe, theres a thing call "Zi Yu Yan Lun"? Moreover, in wad position does he have to teach us? Direct relatives? SRY LO! HE IS JUZ MY FATHER'S BROTHER! ITS NT DIRECT RELATIVE OK?!~ INSIDE MY BODY DUN EVEN HAV HIS DNA OK?! ITS AHGONG, AHMAH, GRANDMA, GRANDPA, MY DAD N MY MUM! Even if he punish us as a so called UNCLE, but pls la! MY FATHER ONLI SLAP ME ONCE, N MY MUM CANED ME B4 SERVERAL TIMES WHEN I WAS YOUNG! MY PARENTS DIN BEAR TO BEAT US UP OR ABUSE US EVEN ONCE! WHEN DO HE GT THE RIGHT TO BEAT US?! Erjie is 27yrs old, a complete adult.. What she has to learn is to control her own temper, but DO UR FATHER HAS THE RIGHT TO TEACH HER TT WHEN HE,HIMSELF, CANT EVEN CONTROL HIS VIOLENCE HORMONES?! n im proud of myself tt, i stab him using words, but nt physically. =] im mre civilised than ur father somehw. No fist, no kick, but words ^^ Think and write b4 u write n say =] Another thing, "insult"?? r u sure tt wad i wrote is insultation?? Cos i read thru wad i wrote several times.. N i THINK tt im juz statin the facts.. n to u, if U THINK tt facts is insults, then I THINK u juz denying wad the truth is.. N like i told xhj, teenagers are young adult.. Even if u r nt mature enuff to accept the facts, u gona learn to accept it.. Cos i wanna treat u like a YOUNG ADULT! But nt a kid ANYMORE =] And also, like i told xhj, THE MORE I TREAT U LIKE A KID, THE MORE U ARE STILL CHILDISH! THE MORE I TREAT U LIKE A ADULT, THEN THE MORE U WILL BCOME AN ADULT! I dun care how ur father teaches u, or wadsoever.. But wad im gona tell u, PLS OPEN UR EYES N SEE WHO IS IN THE WRONG PLACE THE MOST! WAD MAKES UR PERSONALITY LIKE UR FATHER, OF THE TOT TT THE FAULT IS ON OTHER NT OWNSELF=] Im nt insulting.. If ur father felt tt he is wrong in bangin dajie's head, he would say sry.. But he dun even hav the courage of sayin sry to someone even younger generation n age than him.. OR EVEN HE DIN THINK TT HE WAS WRONG! This really makes me felt like, he is nt a material for someone to respect., I really think tt he has the need to reflect wad he has been done.. I admit tt i had said somethin cruel to him, but i wun apologise to someone who i think theres no need to.. Everyone closes to me, noes tt im tt kind "I will say sry, if im in the wrong position".. But is ur dad?? N pls, remember somethin.. WHEN THE REASON HE SLAP MY SIS, HE SAY TT "COS I SONG".. HE SONG THEN CAN HIT PPL LA?! IZZT?! THEN IF I SONG, I CAN JUZ KICK HIS BALLS UNTIL HIS BALLS IS SPOILT IZZT?! And observe properly, the way i wrote the incident, most of it its a neutral party writing it.. Tryin to be a neutral party in writing really makes me suppress of my negative feelings.. U nvr noe hw furious i m about wad ur father had done.. U nvr noe hw i much i hope to strangle ur father wif my own hands. U nvr noe hw much i wanna stab him wif knife wif my own hands. U nvr noe tt, once i close my eyes, when i tot of tt incident, hw much i long to see him die wif torture! I really murdered him several times in my mind wif many ways.. N these makes me felt like im crazy! n YES! Im crazy about gettin him killed, n cursed him to dead! N even Hope tt it will happen hav u 3 has completely be independent! =] Or even when he is old, he will b suffer n tortured by sickness.. N by then, i might nt deny tt i MIGHT be VERY HAPPY! =] N even if i understand u guyz are innocent, but if u cant understand the NEUTRAL view of it, then juz Dun THINK that ur father has fault too.. Do re-read wad i wrote about the fightin part! I wrote tt i was in the fault for sayin those words, but hw can someone who is almost livin for half century do somethin tt is IRRESPONSIBLE and BRAINLESS! If u wan insultation from me, im so glad to say so =] N these are real insultation ^^ Here goes for insultation : I think tt ur father is juz wasting earth resources. Cos He lives for almost half century alrdy, din even noe wads self-discipline is. He is juz acting like non-evloved animal. I can tell u, tis is juz a animal instinct. Human are animal wif high self-discipline, but ur father is completely lack of wad a human should hav =] Can u even understand wad my sentence meant? ^^ u wanna noe y he din wan anyone to mention Ershen infront of him ma?! COS ERSHEN MAKING HIM A CUCKOO, N ITS A STATUS THAT FULL OF HUMILATION! Tts y he wun wan anyone to mention Ershen AS he felt humiliated! n he tot tt Ershen earn xtra $$ from my father, he felt bad.. n pls la! if he is tis good, he will juz stop ershen from doin it alrdy norx! he also wan my father's $$ ma! =.= Pui! He onli thinks tt its ershen's fault to hav boyfrien or wadsoever, DID HE EVER THINK OF Y SHE WOULD WANNA DO TT?! Women can be simple, can be complicated.. Its juz tt ur father betraying ershen by goin for prositutes, is the 1st cause of it.. Who u can blame? If u would really wanna blame, i rather blame ur father for nt being loyal to ur mum.. And this make ur mum to become complicated, n choose a path tt she cannot go back.. N moreover, its nt tt ur mum dun give him chances.. 2nd time betrayal, makes a simple woman gone crazy.. And for me, i told my bf that is he ever did tis to me, i wun even give him a 2nd chance! Cos theres once, there would b twice. This fact can b clearly shown by ur father n MY father! Oh! I talk about facts again, but nt insultation~ Sry~ Like i say im bitchy, n i really cant stand hw he treat my sis.. i think tt im mean enuff to write those things.. LOLX! Hw i hope i can curse him wif my life ^^ Little boy, if u really think tt u can come for peace, then i can say u can juz 4gt about it.. Cos i juz cant forgive wad ur father did ^^ Do learn tt violence onli make u loses, but nt gain! IF violence make u gain, then he wun lose Sigu this sis of his.. N IF violence make u gain, he wun lose us these nieces who i think we are nt important at all! n OH YA! 1 more thing, STOP MAKIN USE OF MY BROTHER FOR HELPIN U GUYZ FOR TUITION WHEN HE CANT EVEN GET TO STUDY HIS OWN SUBJECTS! As a sister of Ahdi, i hav to right to protect him.. In my view, when ahdi finishes teachin u guyz, did u guyz has ever been grateful to him? or juz 1 "Thank you, ahdi kor", then nth alrdy?! Did ur father ever been grateful tt Ahdi teaches u guyz?! Pls la! Dun make it like its ahdi's responsibilities when teaches u guyz of not getting a single cent, n hav to go home by himself in the late nite lo! =.= n STOP MAKIN USE OF AHDI LO =.= Damn it.. If duno, go ask teacher! or ask Ur classmates! AHDI IS NT UR SLAVE OK?! =.= Dedicated to Weifeng
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 • 11:41 PM • 0 comments Like wad i promise, i will put up the pic of my blue black.. lolx! Tada!! Weifeng, this is wad u wrote to me =] Cos its rather long of wad im gona say, n its wad u hav written on my tag =] Weifeng: hey can u stop it? my dad a bastard means i oso bastard la?den my dad bastard means ahgong oso bastard la? means ur dad oso ma cos all go relationship Weifeng: everyone gt fault ok nt only my dad so u dun push de responsibility to my dad k?anyways if ur sis din throw thins on floor or u sayin anytin to provoke him he oso wun use violent k? Weifeng: u dunno anytin bout my family den dun say anytin la my mum leave my dad cos she gt BF ok? my dad did nt even use violence on her b4 u dunno dun anyhw say Ok little boy there! Im gona tell u somethin tt U MIGHT NT B able to ACCEPT! But thats part of the TRUTH tt u might/might not noe! =] Firstly, i admit tt im a bitch or wadsoever =] Like i everytime says tt I M A B-I-T-C-H!=] *~Mayb its true tt i noe NT much abt ur family But still, i wanna say tis in a neutral position! Cos its none of my biz~* Secondly, ur mum gets BF, cos ur father betray her thru goin out to hav sex wif several women that U N UR SISTERS MIGHT NT EVEN NOE WHO THE HELL SHE IS/THEY ARE! Do u noe wad's prostitute? This word is OBVIOUSLY nt a stranger to u! U r smart! N u guyz juz see tt ur mum is in the wrong fault! Relationship always RELY on both parties TRUST N BLAH BLAH BLAH! R/S cracks, u cant onli blame on 1 side! =] N i can onli say Ershen is stupid enuff to revenge on ur dad by finding another man, n get her virginal to b able to conceive again =] N im nt ashame to say tt, MY FATHER WENT FOR PROSTITUTE TILLS HIS COCKS ITCHES! Cos of this, my mum wans to divorce wif him too! But my dad said tt he will die if my mum divorces!! U might think y?! The reason is, MY FATHER SURVIVES IN THE JEWELLERY INDUSTRIAL THRU MY MUM'S BROTHER! N wad u think?! I think tt my father is a "soft-bone" bastard =] And frankly speaking, i duno y u guyz juz put the blame on ershen, but nt him, who is the one tt make the 1st crack of the family breakdown.. Thirdly, HE HAS NO RIGHTS TO USE VIOLENCE ON MY SIS OR ME OR ANY OTHER ONES! And moreover ITS NONE OF HIS BUSINESS IN THE MIDST OF ERJIE AND XIAOGU'S QUARREL! WAD FOR HE CAME IN N KPO, N THERE GOES PIAK?! n FK! WHEN DAJIE WAS YOUNG, HE EVEN BROUGHT DAJIE'S HEAD AND BANG THE BLOODY WALL AT AHMAH'S HSE, WHEN DAJIE WAS QUARRELING XIAOGU! AND THIS COMPLETELY NONE OF HIS BIZ, WHICH HE DIN EVEN NOE WAD'S HAPPENING HEAD AND TAILS! Mayb usin such words u might nt understand, so i will b givin u a CLEAR situation of understanding wad im talkin abt =] Ok, for example, u n ur sis quarrels~ And can i juz go over and GIVE U/UR SIS A ONE TIGHT SLAP?! OR EVEN BROUGHT UR HEAD AND BANG ONTO THE WALL?! DO I HAV A RIGHT TO DO SO?! If u say yes, IM GLADLY TO GIVE U A SLAP and HIT THE WALL WIF UR HEAD =] Do u get the situation clear, LITTLE BOY OVER THERE?! Fourthly, DO U CLEARLY NOE WADS BETRAYAL MEANS?! Betrayal is the breaking or violation of a presumptive social contract(trust , or confidence) that produces moral and psychological conflict within a relationship amongst individuals, between organizations or between individuals and organizations. And to me, Betrayal is the most VIOLENCE thing to do to the other party.. Cos ITS NT ON PHYSICAL BUT MENTALLY AND SPIRITUALLY! ITS JUZ LIKE STABBING KNIVES INTO THE HEART OF ONE'S! Easy Question to UR SIS OR EVEN ALL GALS FELLOW WHO READ MY BLOG, would u GALS allow ur bf/husband to go for prositute even if u are unable to give them sex? And can u b able to IMAGINE a cock that insert into a virginal other than yours =] Its fucking dirty~ Smart little boys and gals there, can u get the phrase of definition of BETRAYAL on the right track? So to give you full explanation on this causes n effects =] Cause 1 : UR FATHER goes for PROSITUTUES, which is mayb ur mum CANT BE ABLE or DUN WAN to sex wif him! "that happens when ur father 1st time, brought u guyz to knee dwn right infront on her mother's hse in MALAYSIA." Effect for Cause 1 : Cracks in a relationship for man and woman =] In my form of view of Psychological Thinkin for ur mother, "Even if i went back to the family, i still dun wan tt dirty cock of his to insert my virginal.. I went back juz for the kids more than him.. " Can u guyz imagine hw the impact gives when u think tt the person, which is ur partner of life, betrayed u in such a way? Cause 2 might be the same as Cause 1.. Cos i dun think anyone would be able to accept tt his/her another partner to go for prositutes *SOMEMRE, ITS AGAIN* and still able to hav sex wif them.. Effect 2 : Woman wans revenge on the man that betray her =] And there goes for ur mother, to choose a rather stupid choice =] And as a woman, i rather she find a man after the divorce, but nt still on a marriage.. Cos that might causes MANY PEOPLE unable to UNDERSTAND her thinkin.. And make her the UNFAITHFUL ONE!=] Oh ya! And 1 more thing, MY DAD MIGHT BE THE 1ST ONE TO NOE TT HE WENT FOR PROSITUTE COS MY DAD DOES THE SAME THING! Cos u noe wad is "Wu4 Yi3 Lei4 Ju4"?? N IM SO GLAD TT XIAOSHU IS NT TT KIND OF MAN AT THIS MOMENT OF TIME =] Things ALWAYS hav 2 sides~ And i admit tt im rather enjoyin rubbing salts on ur dad's wound.. And sayin tt sentence is my fault~ But think again, do ur dad even hav rights to use violence on us? And did he ever think tt he was ever WRONG?! And no matter wad, i think ur father is same as my father, soft-bone bastard.. He is the one makin fault on womanizing, yet he dragged u 3 to knee down infront of ur mother? U guyz are so damn innocent norx! And the 3 of u, onli thought tt its ur mother's fault to hav bf.. And hav u guyz tot of, y she would wan to find 1 new love? Woman are meant to be love, but not for acting like a sex-venting machine or even money-printer =] Theres trust, so theres relationship.. And there goes marriage and family was made thru relationship... Promises and pacts of the marriage are meant to kept and done.. When one's broke promises second time, wad for the other kept it? tts y ur mum chooses a path of finding bf, which is rather stupid to do it when she is still in a married status.. I would rather she do it till they divorced.. and in fact, i support my mum on divorcing.. Cos no matter what, woman/man has rights to reject sex, and the partner of his/her HAS NO RIGHT TO FIND ANOTHER WOMAN/MAN FOR SEX! U NOE WADS HANDS FOR?! AND DO U NOE HW MASTURBATING COMES? We are humans which is evolved due to high intelligence and self-discipline, not animals that is nt yet to be fully evolved u noe? And even SOME ANIMALS ARE LOYAL TO THEIR PARTNER FOR THE WHOLE LIFE!! And wow! I cant simply understand y the 3 of u, onli blamin ur mum for divorcing, but nt ur dad at all.. n peggy thinks tt Ershen is dirty, but nt ur father whose cock might hav been insert into several women's virginal.. This is a cruel fact for u to learn, but its part of the truth =] Its ur father's fault to start the fighting.. And gals' arguement is normal, cos most of it, it wun be lead to fightin.. BUT A MAN HITS A WOMAN?! WOW!~ u noe, singapore's laws protects woman alot to the extend tt, "a woman says a man that might b innocent on molesting her, the man can get caned/jailed/fined/or even all??" And the most hilarious thing is, u go n observe, DID HE EVER HIT A MAN IN THE FAMILY or EVEN OUTSIDE?! MAN VS MAN FIGHTS ARE NORMAL~ BUT MAN VS A WOMAN?! U noe hw big the difference that a guy and a woman can be?! Even WWF/WWE/OLYMPICS NOES IT!! therefore, they onli organised man VS man, woman VS woman, hav u ever see MAN VS WOMAN?! IF UR DAD IS SO POWER, THEN HE GO N HIT XIAOSHU OR SOMEONE OUTSIDE STRONGER THAN HIM LA! GUNDU! =.= U noe wad is "PICK SOMEONE AT UR OWN SIZE?!" Mayb u noe, but nt ur dad =] N i can clearly state here tt, i really look down on my dad n ur dad =] And b clear, U = U, HIM = HIM~ Even if the relationship goes thru in the way u stated, the idioms of "CHU WU NI ER BU RAN" can b clearly note tt, some are not affect by ugly actions no matter hw bad ur living environment is.. Even if u r related, n its in ur blood, as long as ur mentally age is much mre matured than ur father, then i think its ok~ LITTLE BOY N GALs, CAN U understand ME?! and dun 4gt, he almost hit ah wei to the border of being ZI BI! Fight
Sunday, October 5, 2008 • 6:11 AM • 0 comments My title for this post is simple n easy to understand.. Yes! Im goin to talk about somethin relevant to it..To XHJ: I wanted to tell u when i meet u somehw.. But when i saw u in audi, i cant bring myself to tell u about it.. Thing happens like this: Note I : Erjie, my 2nd eldest sis, has been living in Ahmah house's ever since AhGong passed away.. Note II : Ershen is Ershu's Ex-Wife Cos im goin to japan soon enuff, so i wanted to get Zip-lock bags from Erjie.. As she helps me find it, she finds out that her stuff had been touched by the aunties and uncles*My father's siblings*.. And makes her cant find wad she wanted, she start throwing things all around the room.. It kinda frastrated me.. So i tried to control my temper and talk to her reasonably.. But she keeps throwing the bags, and keep mummbling of "I dun like ppl touch my things blah blah blah" Until a point that i cant stand it, so i went out of the room grumbly.. And XiaoGu went into the room, and kinda "say" Erjie.. n Erjie is not very happy about it, so XiaoGu n Erjie starts quarreling.. And Ershu, XiaoGu and Ahmah keep asking Erjie to move out of Ahmah Hse, during the quarreling period.. *Even Ahmah also ask Erjie to move out of her house!* And This KPO Bastard, ErShu, who is actually standing aside, stop XiaoGu n Erjie quarreling by SLAPPING ERJIE! *Its like, other quarreling, y someone would wanna KPO and involved in it?!* Erjie : What gives you have rights to slap me? ErShu : Cos i SONG! Erjie : So What if It makes u Song?! What gives you have rights to slap me?! From this point of time, ErShu went more overboard by pulling Erjie towards him in order to Punch Erjie.. Luckily Erjie Still hav the strength to stop him from pulling herself towards him.. And somehow, they starts fightin in the room.. n aunties and uncles at ahmah hse Stop this room fight by pulling the bastard ErShu away from Erjie.. And of cos, i noe that cos i started watching it after all the aunties and uncles went into the room and stop them.. Somehw i cant stand my siblings bully by anyone! But at least i wun b so low EQ to the extend of punching or slapping people without suitable reasons.. So in the end i planned to leave, i say to the bastard, "If violence can solve any problems, then ErShen wun leave u alrdy.." He cant stands people "put salt on his scar", so he wanted to beat me up or smth.. And again, the aunties and uncles wanted to stop him.. But yet i gt injuried, as he gets to kick me on my face.. At the stage of not having any defend on, i almost fall onto the ground wif the pain on my face which i think its still bearable.. And from here, when Erjie saw that he kicked me, she wanted to kick Ershu.. But yet pulled by someone.. And Ershu turned around and start to pull Erjie's hair all the way.. Erjie pushed Ershu to the sofa, as the sofa is for 1person to sit.. And cant accept such force, so the sofa gave way, and there goes Ershu fell onto the ground along wif Erjie hanging at the sofa handle.. And here left a position like Erjie on top of Ershu.. Ershu still pulling Erjie's hair, which is like a cat fighting.. And Erjie starts grabbing the lower part of Ershu's body, which Erjie dun even noe where she holding and start diggin her long nails onto Ershu's body.. *How i Hope its his LJ or LP, like tt he wun b able to stand! and tt will b so delightful!* and somehow in the end, the fight stops.. I was injuried wif some parts which is lower then my lower lips, gt internal bleeding.. if i gt upload picture of my injuriy, i will put it up.. lolx! Actually, my mouth hav been keep askin erjie to calm down and let it go.. But somehow, my mind has been replayin the scenes, n playin the scene of "Me breaking His Leg!" more than 100 times.. And in fact, i think that he is rather pathetic, wif an age of 40plus almost 50, still using violence against women.. Din he ever noe that, violence cant solve any problems?! Even if he nvr uses any violence on ErShen, it doesnt gives him the right to use violence on others! It will still deepen the problems between one to another!! Living for almost half of the century, yet his thought was still so immatured! I really cant understand, he lives so long for wad?! Wasting Earth Resources?! Since my Dajie, my 1st eldest sis, was as young as around primary school, and if she ever quarrel wif XiaoGu, thi bloody KPO bastard, would beat my sis up! And there was once, he grabbed my Dajie's head and bang it into the concrete wall! And theres once he kinda fight wif SiGu, who is ShuFang's mother.. Now, he beat Erjie and me! He even HAD almost beat Weiwei, his 2nd daughter, to the stage of Autistic/ Zi Bi Zheng.. Erjie's frien, Meiling, said that actually we can call the police as long as a guy lay a finger on a gal, no matter who the hell he is to the gal.. But i dun think its a good idea, because that bastard still gt hav 3 kids to raise.. And if he gt any Offence Background, he would hav difficulties finding jobs.. And my cousins would hav to work to the hell out of their school lifes.. I would nt wan tt to happen though.. But sry to say, Peggy, Weiwei and weifeng, if u ever hav a chance to see this, i think ur father is blooding lack of EQ.. and nt onli that, he really duno how to think!! Wouldnt he be shameful, that the meaning of "Violence onli make one's loses more", had to b even taught by someone who is twice younger than him?! And hw i wish i could CURSED him that, someday he would be tortured by sickness or wadsoever.. N of cos, i hope that would happen after his 3 children had grown up and graduated.. To him, i can onli said thx for taking care of me when i was young.. And for that kick that he gave me, i will treat it as i had repaid him for all these years.. From here, i would say if i could i would wan to sever ties from him! n Guyz, u will nt be able to hear me calling him "ErShu", but that would b replace by "Bastard", "Peipei's father" and so on.. =] THE END =] |
