everyone who saw me in real life, would noes tt i hav lesser n oily har.. but until nw, i think no one noes tt i will also feel low self-esteem abt myself.. im juz like other normal girls, who like to make themselves feel pretty n stuff like tt.. when i wanna use my own strength to do wad i wan n hope (although someone will always b there to help me), no one seems to support me.. i felt rather sad abt it norx...

Like today, in fact, i went to Beijing 101, due to last mth i gt to buy a voucher of $28 for hair treatment.. N i noe tt i had very less hair.. so i was thinkin its worth for trying..

My hair roots, which actually is blocked n oily. tts y my hair is becomin lesser n lesser.. I felt sad abt tt.. i went there, n gt to scan my hair roots to noe hw they looks like physically.. i can see tt my hair roots' pore is contracting n oily.. i felt uncomfortable abt it, i noe i wanna do smth abt it.. n within a couple hrs of tt treatment, n gt to scan my hair roots again.. i can see tt my pores gets to open, n felt tt the pores are cleaned.. i felt relieved.. n gt to sign up a package of 10 treatment at the price of $890, wif a voucher of $100.. so in fact i pay it for $790.. n of cos paid by instalments na.. lolx.. n ahdi let me $100 for deposit..

N gt back, told my mum abt it.. she kept sayin smth which makin myself felt stupid n unhappy.. i noe tt the package has a rather high price na.. but if i gt to pay some effort on doin smth to make my hair healthy n more, i will at least felt happier norx.. doin smth which makes myself felt mre confident n happy, isnt it worth?? at least i felt it worth na.. NO OFFENCE NA.. ppl can spend lots n lots of $$ to buy cosmetics n skin care stuff, y cant i spend some $$ on my hair?? Although the price for me nw, is rather abit uneffortable, but i would also tryin to earn n save $$ for tt ma.. juz tryin to spend $$ to make mself happy n confidence, gt wrong meh!?

although i always act as if im very happy, but hw many ppl actually noes tt im nt feelin happy?? sometimes i juz dun hope the ppl ard me nt happy, so i act as if im happy n hope to spread tt happiness to the ppl who is nt happy..
i might seems to be cheerful.. but when i felt negative, i like to b alone.. n sometimes it makes me felt tt i bcomin mre n mre loner le norx.. who would notice tt?? i duno.. lolx..

ok, limin.. i update my blog le.. dun say i din update wor..

btw, recently theres a movie named "I love you, man", which i went to watch wif charis.. that movie is rather funny norx.. lolx!! but too bad, i din get to watch transformers yet.. lolx.. AAAA!!! i wanna watch transformer!! roar~~

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