When you keep on criticizing me, I tried to control my temper and i pulled myself back from exploding... But somehow all these effort is not seen by you...

you ignore me as and when you like, which i had already told you not to so, because I don't like. but obviously you dun give a damn...

You said that you dun feel like smiling so you dun wanna smile to me. IF you are allow to do such thing and allow yourself to do such thing to me, then what am i to you?

From your all these reaction, it makes me feel discouraging and hurtful, and even makes me feel like cancelling the air ticket to your hometown.

I am a "precious" in my family, a spoilt brat if i want to be.

But yet, it seems like my tolerance towards you had mislead you that I am a woman that does not have much temper.

Too bad, you are wrong. you are getting on my nerves. you are pushing to an edge whereby I decided to let you be alone.

Maybe that suits you more currently. You dun feel like talkin? fine! Lets dun talk.

You dun feel like smiling? Fine! Then dun smile..

But I guess, you might not feel much pain as I do.

I hate myself from loving you.

Cos I know that the moment you are sitting beside me, would make me want to cry.

I feel like reject all the closeness from you now.

I hate you appearing in front me because I know I would be soft-hearted and start to approach you again..

I know it is stupid, so i would do all my might not to be stupid.

Why would all these gone wrong? Because you are running out of patience.

I know I am not demanding too much, it is just that the "freshness" in the relationship just gone stale.

No more patience from you, no more passion from you, no more communication from you.

All I got is criticism and criticism and criticism and criticism..

How much negative feeling you had created in me? I have seriously no idea.

While you criticizing me, why not you look at yourself first?

How dare you and what give you the authority to do this to me?

I hate these.. really.. all the warmth you gave me will be buried in my heart.

It will be a wonderful memories. I would just stay strong and will tell myself not to be soft-hearted again.

I am sick and tired of experiencing such treatment from you, which I think that I do not deserve such craps.

It is sickening.

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